Thursday, October 16, 2008 @ 7:11 PM

i'm ready!

The start of a new school semester is just round the corner.

With much anticipation and excitement, I checked up my timetable as soon as Garene messaged me something not-exactly-very-pleasing to me. After looking at mine, I went to search for every single one of my friend's timetable (whom I knew are taking the same subject selection as me). How should I say it, okay.. One word - depressing.

It all seems like a huge joke being played on me. The odd one out from my entire clique consisting of about 5people, being in the same class as people whom I do not really know much of (in fact, sometimes they can be quite intimidating), and yet finding new people to form groups, and lastly, it was BAD timetable. The worst I've ever gotten.

For that moment, I couldn't take it! No, I did not break down, but I knew I wasn't in a right conscious state of mind. I was disappointed. I stoned. I went on a silent craze with my own thoughts... I know that God is in control and all, yet on the other hand I just couldn't accept the fact that how all these just fall upon me...



But, I've got the most most most loving God/ Father/ Best Friend in the universe! Despite my lousy spirit, having a first response of somewhat a non-believer, God remains faithful.. I love you God!

I really thank God, for placing me at the right place (Cheng's house), right time (shepherding time), with the right person (ChengLee herself). She was there beside me all the while, she knew what I was feeling, she sensed I wasn't right. I knew her plans for shepherding didn't go according as planned, but she did whatever she could to make me feel better and lead me back to God. Thank you so so so much Pretty Shepherd! :) She prayed for me, led me into worship, counselled, 'fed' her sheep with good food. Hahahahaha, truly felt loved, love you Cheng cheng :D


And of course, was greatly ministered by God Himself.

You are the peace that guards my heart,
my help in times of need.
You are the hope that leads me on,
and brings me to my knees.
For there I find you waiting,
and there I find release.
So with all my heart I'll worship,
and unto You I'll sing!!!
-You Alone

Who else, but God alone :D

God, your ways are higher than mine, your plans are always the best, you are never late but always on time. God I want to trust in your mighty plans, I know this is a time of stretching and growing. I will grow in my trust, I will grow in my faith, I will step out of my comfort zone! Big problems and testings will bring big miracles and overcoming opportunities. I want to be an overcomer in Christ, leaving this semester stronger than before! I will learn to rejoice in all circumstances, thank You Lord, for giving me this privilege.



I'm ready for more! :)





I love you Lord.